My Former Self
These days when I look back
I feel I have control and
My emotions stay in check
Enough to let me go
To another place
Where my head stays clear and
The anger and frustration seem to disappear
Of all the things I’ve learned
I Guess
My former self would not break down at all
But brick by brick we’re watching him fall
Seems like a thousand years
Since we laughed aloud
Like a couple normal people
Stationed in a crowd
Sometimes I ask myself
Why am I so scared
You probably felt the same way
Wondered if I care
Let it all out this time
For good
My former self would not break down at all
Brick by brick we’re watching him fall
Remind me where we came from
Remind me where we’ve been
Tell me where I’m going and
We can part as friends
Remind me where we came from
Remind me where we’ve been
Tell me ‘bout the future and
We can start again
Tumble In The Rough
I can’t eat
I can’t sleep
I can’t live
I can’t cry
I can’t die
I can’t walk
I can’t talk
I can booze
I can booze and steal your shoes so I can move
Tumble in the rough
I’m lookin’ for a new mediation
Still lookin’ for a new way to fly
Don’t want any plastic validation
Not looking for a new way to die
I made excuses for a million lies
But all I got was humble kidney pie
So what
I can’t eat
I can’t sleep
I can’t live
I can’t cry
I can’t die
I can’t walk
I can’t talk
I can booze
I can booze and steal your shoes so I can move
Tumble in the rough
I’m lookin’ for a new stimulation
Quite bored of those inflatable ties
I’m lookin’ for a new rock sensation
Dead fish don’t swim around in jealous tides
I made excuses for a million lies
But all I got was humble kidney pie
So what
Can’t live, can’t buy new shoes
Tumble in the rough
Lived on a summer with new shoes
Tumble in the rough
Can’t live, can’t die new shoes
Tumble in the rough
Lived on a summer with new shoes
Tumble in the rough
I can’t eat
I can’t sleep
I can’t live
I can’t cry
I can’t die
I can’t walk
I can’t talk
I can booze
I can booze and steal your shoes so I can move
Tumble in the rough
I made excuses for a million lies
But all I got was humble kidney pie
So what
Reborn
I revel a new day
In the sunshine
I’ll show you a new way
When I started off
I made a pact with myself
If I ever was holding on too tightly
I’d take a step and rely on someone else
But now I feel everyone takes this too lightly
Summer is just around the corner
But I’m sure I’ll find any excuse
To write you new song but this time around
I’ll enjoy you, really enjoy you
I feel as though I’ve been reborn
I put faith in every relationship
But never again will they be one sided
If you only do for you and me for me
Then the whole thing gets terrible one sided
Or maybe it’s just me
Summer is just around the corner
But I’m sure I’ll find any excuse
To write you new song but this time around
I’ll enjoy you, really enjoy you
I feel as though I’ve been reborn
I revel a new day
In the sunshine
I’ll show you a new way
Misery
When I look back at my life
I used to carry ‘round with me a pocket full of rage
I used to make things that are nice
Seem so much out of reach I was like a tiger in a cage
Misery seems to follow me
Tryin’ and tryin’ to consume me
Maybe destiny has got a hold of me
Laughing she’s reaching through the depths of me
Through the depths of me
I was thinking about you yesterday
It made me think what might have been for you and me
If our paths had no crossed anyway
Would the end have changed so much or differently
Misery seems to follow me
Tryin’ and tryin’ to consume me
Maybe destiny has got a hold of me
Laughing she’s reaching through the depths of me
Through the depths of me
You all up in my face
But I won’t let you steal my sunshine
Conform is such a waste
I will never let you steal my sunshine
Coffee, Cigarettes and Judge Judy
This couch become my home
Judge Judy my best friend
Most nights I sit alone
I sleep through daylight again
My diet coffee
Double, double and cigarettes
My ashtray overflows
I could not care any less
My mind is razor sharp
I’m almost thin as a blade
I think I’d start to laugh
But I’m afraid I’d break
In the end it’s always lonely
And the T.V. almost echos
Not to say that you don’t see me
I look for you outside my window
Served my country well
Flew to a foreign land
Survived a living hell
Slept with this gun in my hand
No matter where I go
I stay there long enough
That place becomes my home
Is this the place I’ll end up
So now here I sit
What does Judy have in store
I’m waiting on my son
Is that the key in the door
In the end it’s always lonely
And the T.V. almost echos
Not to say that you don’t see me
I look for you outside my window
I smoke a cigarette real slowly
They’ve been the hardest things to let go
I couldn’t live without my coffee
Or the sound of her T.V. show
Let me show you around
I’ll tell you what it looks like in my head
I’d love for you to stay for a while
I’ll try my best not to vent
If you can’t then I understand
But I’ll miss you when you’re gone
It was good to see you more than usual
Ya know
In the end it’s always lonely
And the T.V. almost echos
Not to say that you don’t see me
I look for you outside my window
Rival
Woke up to another day
I wish this feeling would go away
Now It’s been so long
Since I’ve been outside without my shirt on
I wanted to feel the sunlight on my skin
Is it so wrong to wish that we all could start again
I want to drive and go just to be alone
So no one will see me again
No eyes to see my lies
All the imperfection lines
My rival is just my friend
My eyes are clear again
I wanted to feel the sunlight on my skin
Is it so wrong to wish that we all could start again
Now I’m locked away
I occupy and hold the key
To my own cell
Well I propose a self imposed vacation from
Those who know
I worry about who they will tell
I listen when they exhale
I daze away to a place that comforts me
I close my eyes I soon forget
That it’s only a dream
Is it so wrong to wish that we all could just start again
I daze away to a place that comforts me
I rest my eyes I soon forget
That it’s only a dream
I daze away
I daze away
Spiritus Mundi
Was it ever high enough to consider yourself at rock bottom
Skin so beaten and your body’s so weak
Your eyes are all red
Hide away the lines as
You pull your hood over your head
I thought I saw you walk by today
She tells me it’s all in my head
She’s says I’m crazy and I need to find God instead
Find God instead
Maybe I’ll meet him like you and
The rest of the dead
Rest of the dead
I guess it’s your time
I know that heaven can wait
Somehow I made the mistake
Of thinking you’re fine
I hate to see you this way I will continue to pray
Sort of on the outside
Things will continue to change
I change my mind everyday
All through the mind field
Where I live in my head
I thought about the things I have seen
Moving on is letting go
What remains to be seen
If I am as capable as you staying clean
But that’s just a dream
I guess it’s your time
I know that heaven can wait
Somehow I made the mistake
Of thinking you’re fine
I hate to see you this way I will continue to pray
We are all here for you
Sort of on the outside
Things will continue to change
Am I prepared for the day
You keep telling yourself
You’ll never do it again
Keep telling us all you’ll never do it again
You keep messin’ around
You won’t have any friends
Keep telling yourself
You’ll never do it again
You’ll never do it again
It won’t happen again
But it will happen again
Time to dream
Spiritus Mundi
A Horse With No Name
On the first part of the journey
I was looking at all the life
There were plants and birds and rocks and things
There were sand and hills and rings
The first thing I met was a fly with a buzz
And the sky with no clouds
The heat was hot and the ground was dry
But the air was full of sound
I’ve been through the desert on a horse with no name
It felt good to be out of the rain
In the desert you can remember your name
Because there ain’t no one for to give you no pain
La, la
After two days in the desert sun
My skin began to turn red
After three days in the desert sun
I was looking at a river bed
And the story it told of a river that flowed
Made me sad to think it was dead
You see I’ve been through the desert on a horse with no name
It felt good to be out of the rain
In the desert you can remember your name
Because there ain’t no one for to give you no pain
La, la
After nine days I let the horse run free
‘Cause the desert had turned to sea
There were plants and birds and rocks and things
There was sand and hills and rings
The ocean is a desert with its life underground
And a perfect disguise above
Under the cities lies a heart made of ground
But the humans will give no love
I’ve been through the desert on a horse with no name
It felt good to be out of the rain
In the desert you can remember your name
Because there ain’t no one for to give you no pain
La, la
Seventy-One Trips Around The Sun
Instrumental
Living Stronger
No doubt you are the enemy
Too many people suffer in your wake
The un-killable killer
Waiting for the moment you can take it from them
So we pull you, cut you, push you out the door
You’re back again, you’re coming back for more
The un-killable killer
But that don’t mean that we are backing down
I will stay with you when your light fades
Leave you never
Your hand inside of mine
I see your smile last forever
Sometime we are called to fight again
We won’t retreat and won’t surrender
To the un-killable killer
Just know that we will fight you until the end
I will stay with you when your light fades
Leave you never
Your hand inside of mine
I see your smile last forever
Wander
Alone I wander on an empty road
But the fork seems a little bit bent
I clouds which way I should go
Because these days all I really want now
Is closure and peace of mind
But I know that roads a slow grind
I’ll take this time ahead
Try not to focus on the ending
I’ll save what time is left and
Find the answers I’ve been seeking
Letting go
With everything I have inside me
So I’m searching for a remedy
God give me strength to make my stand
I put one foot out and try to put the other out
Surrender who I am
To move along at least until the pain is gone
More like myself again
Becasue dangerously we tend to push our sanity out
Until the end
I found myself again
It just took a little looking
Wandering alone
I feel like all the time
Wandering alone
I feel like all the time
Wandering alone
I feel like all the time
Still I wander on this empty road
Only this time I’m not alone
Clear now which way I should go
Out Of Body Experience
It’s six a.m. again and
I feel like I’ve been running all night
I’m tied up to my bed
But I get again loose
‘Cause it makes me feel right
It confuses me
Like an astral travel
Out of body experience
But then I run back home
Because I don’t want to die a sleepy death
Push the limit to the sky
It’s the only way to fly
I can’t ignore the pressure
I can’t ignore the pain
I can’t ignore the reasons
I look for my escape
Push the limit to the sky
This is the only way to fly
You won’t be the only one just try
Push the limit to the sky
This is the only way to fly
You won’t be the only one just try
You won’t be the only one just try
Born To Follow
Living with no excuse
So I preach what I follow
If it's all borrowed time
Should I live for tomorrow
What you bring is brainwashing
But my mind isn't listening
If you know what I know
Then you know we were born to follow
Goodbye thought control
I'm standing on the brink of letting go
Of all things that I have learned
I'm dreaming of a future I call my own
Got home late one night
Turned on the TV set
Can't make out his face
Just a hazy silhouette
Reaches out asks me to send
Lots of money that he can spend
If you know what I know
Then you know we were born to follow
Goodbye thought control
I'm standing on the brink of letting go
Of all things that I have learned
I'm dreaming of a future I call my own
Rub the dust out from my eyes
Not a place I recognize
Plug my ears until they're done
Naive to think it's all but one
Road To Nowhere
You can take what you want and leave me with nothing
Out of self pity not gonna cry for no one
I'm tired of feeling like I'm stuck in the road
More like the road to nowhere at all
Nowhere at all
I keep a list of names of people I don't like
Let me congratulate you making number one
I'm tired of feeling like I'm stuck in the road
But your a speed bump
And I'm running over you
I'm picking myself up proper
No time for me to falter
My will today is stronger
You can't stop me
Hey I don't care if I come off too hard
Hard on you
I spit where you lay
And rest for good
I'm tired of feeling like I'm stuck in the road
More like the road to nowhere
So I'm off the road to nowhere
Space In Time
I took a drive and I cannot lie
I went straight back to your old house
There was no sign of anyone
So I stopped on by just to check it out
Our spot on the porch doesn't look much different to me than it did
Just some holes from the rain and our initials from when we were kids
Bye Bye the innocence is gone
You didn't need me, you're never coming home
But you will always be that kid to me
Forever
There's a scent I can't forget
The smell of summer creeping in
How many mornings did we get up
Before the sun just to take it in
If our space in that time really is forever
Well you know it is
All the years that passed don't diminish
All the things we did
So fare well but this ain't our goodbye
Until we meet on the other side
Bye bye the innocence is gone
It didn't hit that you're never coming home
But now your memory lives on with me
Forever
All the things we did
Seems like yesterday
Our childhood fix
I took a drive and I cannot lie
I went straight back to your old house
There was no sign of anyone
So I stopped on by just to check it out
Our spot on the porch doesn't look much different to me than it did
Just some holes from the rain and our initials from when we were kids
Our spot on the porch
That's our spot on the porch
And it was good thinking of you old friend
Again
Room With A View
I try to open my eyes so I can leave here alive
Don't need you standing above
I throw the salt on my wounds
I say I'll be back soon
Is this me showing the love
My wrists are delicate things
I've got no ice in my veins but I'm cold on the inside
If I'm given the chance I will get up dance
My way around to the outside
And go!
Don't matter how far I go I never travel alone
Don't need you hanging around
I heal the cut with my mouth and pull the ugliness out
I barely make a sound
My neck is built like a swing it can hold everything
Even feet that dangle
I think you've proven your point with your invisible joints but you are far from an angel
Once again when the day breaks
That's when I make my escape
But I'm really never as far gone as I think
The bars here a little much as you can tell
And you do tell yeah
You call it a room with a view
but I freeze on the floor of my cell
I wish I was like a super man
You know with a super plan
But my fate is already set
Been here since I was just a kid
But then I grew up big
This letter is as free as I get
This letter
This letter is as free as I get
One Big Rush
I walk inside here just to take it in
I see a room so empty
But when the lights are close to going dim
One big rush coming over me
I feel the power of your energy
Created by the noise
Where silence is your only enemy
That one big rush destroys
Something magical
Almost spiritual
That I feel inside
Like a thunderbolt
Rush incredible
Makes me feel alive
We never think about tomorrow
When we are one with you all
It means so much I can't imagine
Ever feeling sick of it all
Something magical
Almost spiritual
That I feel inside
Like a thunderbolt
Rush incredible
Makes me feel alive
Super Overload
She's running back to me again
It's harder than it's ever been
I'm tired of being her fixer man
Can't tell if I'm coming or going
She's so mean but then again
She's not mine to let go
But when she's here her love's like a super overload
By the time I go to pick it up
My phone has rung like a hundred times
She'll call me obsessively if she thinks that she has slipped my mind
I can't stop what you do to me
Your love it brings the worst of me
I guess that's the way it's supposed to be
I am addicted to the misery
She's so mean but then again
She's not mine to let go
But when she's here her love's like a super overload
And when we're alone she's delicate
And her sweetness brings me closer in
She wakes up with a look of content for the first time
In a long time
She's so mean but she's not mine to let go
But when She's here her love's like a super overload
She's so mean but then again
She's not mine to let go
But when she's here her love's like a super overload
Common in Disguise
Everyone I know is so delusional
They'd all sell their souls for a chance to get inside
But they don't know they're among the typical
They all think they're special
Just common in disguise
Well I know exactly who you are
You're the fucking joke from around the way
I know exactly who you are
Inside
They are the ones that hate everything
When all they ever do is simple and inane shit
They claim that they will change the world
And they'll say "I'll be the one here laughing when they idolize my name" yeah
I know exactly who you are
You're the fucking joke from around the way
I know exactly who you are
Inside
Do you wanna go for a ride I will explain myself I know where you're coming from
Believe me I know too well
But this is a chance to turn it all around
And wake up feeling happy
But you won't do it
Star
Good things happen when you come around
I'd be happy just to play along
But I'm feeling it's more than just pretend
And if you gave me your heart we'd make it more than friends
She keeps her focus on me I can't break the weight of her stare
When I try to that's when she shies away
But if she gave me her heart I'd try not to hesitate
One look at your face and man it hit me I'm taking it all to heart
'Cause you make me feel an all time happy
You are my lucky star
Yeah it's alright
The other day I saw you I meant to
Tell you something to make you smile
If I'm honest it wouldn't have come out that way
But if you gave me your heart I promise to try anyway
One look at your face and man it hit me
I'm taking it all to heart
'Cause you make me feel an all time happy
You are my lucky star
One look at your face and man it hit me
I'm taking it all to heart
'Cause you make me feel an all time happy
You are my lucky star
Chasing the Tiger
Don't want to put you down
No matter how much I say I'm going to
It's like the biggest joke around
It's like a drug that won't stop calling you
I don't mean it's an impossible thing
But it's far from easy
Believe me I know better
Won't lie and say it feels good
Truth is it feels so far away
Far away
Can't say I haven't missed you
But your a devil and it's all a game I must be willing to play
This one time when I fell asleep
Things were moving slow just like a fantasy
It almost seemed like it was mine to keep
But then I woke up and it was back to reality
My will is weaker but my callus strong
From chasing the tiger
Believe me I know better
Won't lie and say it feels good
Truth is it feels so far away
Far away
Can't say I haven't missed you
But your a devil and it's all a game I must be willing to play
I'll make it easy one more time again
I'll make it easy one more time again
I'll make it easy one more time again
I'll make it easy
One more time
Won't lie and say it feels good
Truth is it feels so far away
Far away
Can't say I haven't missed you
But your a devil and it's all a game I must be willing to play
Play. Listen. Rewind. Repeat.
All songs written by Tommy Marz
except '1999' written by Prince
Best Of Me
Should I go to California
To find the girl that I let get too far
If I drive on down the highway
I'll add the miles but I'll count them with my heart
Can we go back home and be a family
I know damn well you haven't seen the best of me
If I say this time that you've been on my mind
An honest man right now without a doubt I'd be
I spent too long on the sidelines
Now the girl I love is the girl I've lost this time
And I hope it's not forever
Because I've stayed away and I paid for all my crimes
Can we go back home and raise a family
I know damn well you haven't seen the best of me
If I say this time that you've been on my mind
An honest man right now without a doubt I'd be
Face To Face
I hold out my hands and cup the Earth
The dirt flies away and I'm wondering
If someone else across the world
Is feeling the same way I feel right now
It's making me think that life's to short to waste
Hating each other when we'll probably never meet face to face.
A girl plays in Chicago
She is no different than the girl in Shanghai
They both love playing the Princess
They are the future so give this a try
It's making me think that life's too short to waste
Hating each when we'll probably never meet face to face
Let's dance!
A Kid In The 1980's (White Adidas)
I can't deny I'm obessified
With everything that takes me back to being a kid in the 1980's
From Mr. T to Billie Jean
I want to moonwalk up and down your screen like he did on MTV again.
(Oh yeah)
We're going out tonight
(Oh yeah)
We're gonna take a ride
(Oh yeah)
We're going back in time
Like Marty and Doc and we won't stop until we're back in 1985
Beep, beep sounds the horn as they beep us and we go
Creep, creep and we're wearing White Adidas baby
Beep, Beep sounds the horn as they beep us and we go
Creep, creep and we're wearing White Adidas
Now it used to be a distant memory
Of going down the street with my headphones singing something 80's
Oh like Purple Rain or Every Breath You Take
I'm Hungry Like The Wolf but I got no time for The Breakfast Club here lately
(Oh yeah)
I got the shoes on
(Oh yeah)
Like Run did in that song
(Oh yeah)
We want to Walk This Way but It's Tricky to rock
like DMC did with Jam Master Jay
Beep, beep sounds the horn as they beep us and we go
Creep, creep and we're wearing White Adidas baby
Beep, Beep sounds the horn as they beep us and we go
Until the morning comes
I push play on my Walkman
And I listen to my favorite jam
I rewind and repeat and do the same thing over and over and again and again
Beep, beep sounds the horn as they beep us and we go
Creep, creep and we're wearing White Adidas baby
Beep, Beep sounds the horn as they beep us and we go
Until the morning comes.
Chasing Maybe
I want to say what's on my mind
But I don't want to leave the wrong impression
Many years ago I would cry
Or lie awake in my own obsession over someone like you
Well now
I'm feeling lately
Like I'm chasing maybe out
I'm back here ready to start again
No longer green no longer weathered
Because I know it's easy to fall again
Into that trap so I'm watching everything
And our time together? You'll see
I'm feeling lately
Like I'm chasing maybe out
You look at me
I look at you
Let's play a game that I am losing
I'm feeling lately
Like I'm chasing maybe
Because you bring me down kid
A Song For You
Filling the days up with our lives from working all the time
But you and me we've got it made
Hearing your voice makes my heart sing and on top of everything
You and me we've got it made
I'm feeling good tonight
I'm feeling like nothings gonna stop this feeling of my heart so alive
From every time you come around with that look in your eyes
Let me tell you about this girl
She really is something and even though my words wont do her justice
Just close your eyes and if you can
Really try to imagine because me alone without her equates to almost nothing
So I'm feeling good tonight
I'm feeling like nothings gonna stop this feeling of my heart so alive
From every time you come around with that look in your eyes
We're always searching
And most of the time when we find we don't realize
But those are the best kinds
Because you never see it coming it just sort of happens
She's Gone
9am I awake and I look around but the place feels empty
I walk down the hall to see what's going on
I find the coffee she left me
I thought I knew it all because
I thought laughing was good enough
How can one be so blind
She's gone
She's got a ticket and now she's flown away
To a new place and I'm left behind
And she's gone forever
I lift my spoon and think about the love notes she'd write
Carved into the sugar bowl
But now there's nothing but sweet with nothing on top
Only memories of growing old
I thought I knew it all because
I thought holding you was good enough
You needed more from me
She's gone
She's got a ticket and she's flown away
To a new place and I'm left behind
And she's gone forever
One more look and then I'll put it away
This pictures happiness has already started to fade away
I thought I knew it all because
I thought simple was good enough
But she needed more from me
She's gone
She's got a ticket and she's flown away
I'll never see her face anymore
Because she's gone forever
Rival
All songs written by Tommy Marz
except 'Faith' written by George Michael
Love (around you)
You call me up and tell me
That you are on your way
Something so simple
Brings a smile back to my face
If I ever lose you
I would never be the same
It's like the world stopped spinning
And I'd be thrown away
Because it feels like home
When you're lying in my arms
You put your head on my chest
And I throw my arms around you
Around you
I think about you everyday
Don't want to be too much
Because it's like the pilots say
You go up, up, up but eventually you come down
If I ever lose you
I would never be the same
It's like the world stopped spinning
And I'd be thrown away
It feels like home
When you're lying in my arms
You bring me up until I'm flying
There's no more room for my denial
I keep my love on the inside
I'll do my best to show on the outside
On the outside
If I ever lose you
I would never be the same
It's like the world stopped spinning
And I'd be thrown away
Because it feels like home
When you're lying in my arms
You put your head on my chest
And I throw my arms around you
Around you
Faith
by George Michael
Well I guess it would be nice
If I could touch your body
I know not everybody
Has got a body like you
But I've got to think twice
Before I give my heart away
And I know all the games you play
Because I play them too
Oh but I
Need some time off from that emotion
Time to pick my heart up off the floor
And when that love comes down
Without devotion
Well it takes a strong man baby
But I'm showing you the door
'Cause I gotta have faith...
Baby
I know you're asking me to stay
Say please, please, please, don't go away
You say I'm giving you the blues
Maybe
You mean every word you say
Can't help but think of yesterday
And another who tied me down to lover boy rules
Before this river
Becomes an ocean
Before you throw my heart back on the floor
Oh baby I reconsider
My foolish notion
Well I need someone to hold me
But I'll wait for something more
Yes I've gotta have faith...
Only Human
I watch the moon surrender to a cloud in the sky
I compare it to the dark clouds that distill my mind
For seven months I ran around to find out why I'm here
A little voice inside my head says relax and have no fear
Maybe it's insecurity showing it's ugly head
Or maybe it's my conscience that swears I'd be better off dead
Anyway
Gotta find, gotta find a way
Gotta finally let it go
It's been too long my friend
You see I'm only human
Gotta find, gotta find a way
Gotta finally let it go
I keep my promises
I just can't keep from going slow.
I sit across from you inside a crowded room
You hit me with that crooked smile that you take away too soon
The worst thing that could happen to me now is you keeping your distance
Or at least stay away long enough to build resistance
Every now and again I think of you and hear your voice
And I have to remind myself that staying wasn't a choice
Well anyway
Gotta find, gotta find a way
Gotta finally let it go
It's been too long my friend
You see I'm only human
Gotta find, gotta find a way
Gotta finally let it go
I keep my promises
I just can't keep from going slow.
All My Energy
I put my life into your hands
Treat me like I'm family
The Sun, the waves, I make my stand
The Swell my only enemy
I feel I've lost my way
Underestimate
I hit you with a full attack
I take the risk of falling back
Let the rains come down on me
Just enough to breathe
My body moves to fast
I've taken this a little far
She pulls me out, will I come back?
She wonders who we think we are
I feel I've lost my way
Underestimate
I hit you with a full attack
I take the risk of falling back
Let the rains come down on me
I take a breath and count to three
I go 1, 2, 3... all my energy
I keep it moving constantly
One more burst again.
Destiny
It's time to put away these memories
Into a box so I won't see them anymore
They're over there on the floor
As a matter of fact you won't see me again
What's the point of being friends
If we can't get along?
So I'm moving on
I will leave it up to Destiny
Because I think she knows what she's doing this time
Driving my car with the radio on
I turn up the sound to my favorite song
And everything's all right
Yeah everything's all right
I will leave it up to Destiny
Because I think she know's what she doing this time
An empty heart I'd like to think
Has its own way of dealing the pain
A fatal blow to wash away
Whatever feelings remain
To make me content to be alone
and that's ok
It's time to put these memories
Time to put these memories away
Rival
Woke up to another day
I wish this feeling would go away
Now it's been so long
Since I've been outside without my shirt on
I wanted to feel the sunlight on my skin
Is it so wrong to wish that we all could start again?
I want to drive and go just to alone
So no one will see me again
No eyes to see my lies
All the imperfection lines
My rival is just friend
My eyes are clear again
I wanted to feel the sunlight on my skin
Is is so wrong to wish that we all could start again?
Now I'm locked away
I occupy and hold the keys to my own cell
Well I propose a self imposed vacation from those who know
I worry about who they will tell
I listen when they exhale
I daze away
To a place that comforts me
I close my eyes
I soon forget
That it's only a dream
Is it so wrong to wish that we all could start again?
I daze away
To a place that comforts me
I close my eyes
I soon forget
That it's only a dream
I daze away
I daze away
Polly Anna
I woke up this morning, opened my eyes
Polly Anna still on my mind
A clever girl that makes up her own answers
Says she doesn't believe in love
Says love is a cancer
She's a good girl underneath
And she takes the part of me
That's in between her
To love her is to know her
Definitely
Polly Anna would you trust me?
Now we drive alone hop in my car and go
To a far out place we drive down to Mexico
Polly puts her arm over the back of my seat
She knows how to move me while being discreet
She's a good girl underneath
And she takes the part of me
That's in between her
To know her is to love her
Definitely
Polly Anna do you trust me?
You lock your eyes onto mine
When you know you've crossed the line
When I swear to you I'm gone
You're evil in your way
With all the games you play
I guess that's the price for fun
Some Things Never Change
Seems like forever
Since we fought about it
Just keep me from that other side
I'll stay and listen
But I won't pretend I'm missing
The fear that I used to hide
I see through it
So I'm not gonna do it
I've been there too many times
What it is
Is what it was
And some things never change
But it's good to see the real you
With your head on straight anyway
I can't recall something as beautiful
Like the color of your eyes
I dream in shades of grey
And it seems like shadows popping up
They keep the pain away
Long enough for my escape
What it is
Is what is was
And some things never change
I can't recall something as beautiful
Like the clarity in your eyes
I can't recall something so beautiful
Like the color of your eyes
He's coming back again
He's got a shooter friend
I turn to face the door
And I swear to God I'm never coming back again
They never let it go
Because their lives are ran by a wrecking ball
And waking up straight is a scarier thought
Than living in a life that's comatose
Do you know why he said
I lived a lie instead.
I can't recall something as beautiful
like the color of your eyes
Some things never change
And some things never change
About A Fool
It's late
I wonder what you're doing
See your face in a picture
I wonder who you're loving
If my love for you
Ever clouds my judgement
Then I'm a fool that needs to be punished
I'd lie If I could
Just to make you believe in me
Why do you call me up
What do you want from me
I only hear from you when he's away
You throw your arms around
We tumble to the ground
And all the drama it dissapates
If my love for you
Ever clouds my judgement
Then I'm a fool that needs to be punished
I'd lie If I thought
It would make you believe in me
Come on, come on and let me go
Come on, come on be reasonable baby
Come on, come on and let me go
Got to find my own way baby
I'd lie if I thought
It would change things for you and me yeah
I'd lie if I thought
It would change things for you and me now
Got to let me go
Got to make things right
Mind Grind
I guess I'm ripe for the taking
I've got to move real fast
I shouldn't count all my blessings
Until I learn from the past
My fear is taking me over
I don't feel like yesterday strong
My strength it forms in a second baby
I just can't keep it that long
Paranoid I ask myself
What's the point of no return?
Got to get it all together, man... Oh yeah
Contemplating many things
Is this real or just a dream?
Don't want to do anything that I'll regret in the morning
Well it's a quarter past midnight
My eyes are locked on the wall
Is that my shadow waving?
Is that my ghost in the hall?
My body lays without a sound
My heart ticks like a bomb
Will I make it til morning
I reach out to sound the alarm
Wake Up
Paranoid I ask myself
What's the point of no return?
Got to get it all together, man... Oh yeah
Contemplating many things
Is this real or just a dream?
Don't want to do anything that I'll regret in the morning
No Regrets
Here I stand before you
I rack my brain for the right thing to say
I want to take a picture
So I remember the way you look today
The first time I saw you
You stood across the room
The moment our eyes met
I knew nothing would do
But to have you
Tomorrow I'm leaving on a journey
That will forever take me away from you
Reaching out toward you
I know one thing will never change
That's the way I adore you
Because no one else has made me feel this way
In this delicate season
In which our worlds have come apart
Understand my reasons
And know you'll have a place in my heart
Tomorrow I'm leaving on a journey
That will forever take me away from you
The air is cold on my skin
My jacket barely keeps me warm
When I exhale
The disappointment seems so obvious
My face doesn't hide a thing
Doesn't hide a thing
A thing
I let you go
I wonder how you live your life
Whether you are alone
It's hard to ignore
When you were my favorite
Tomorrow I'm leaving on a journey
That will forever take me away from you
Tomorrow I'm leaving on a journey
that will forever take me away from you
Come on and take me away
Come on and take me away
O.B.E.
It's six a.m. again
I feel like I've been running all night
I'm tied up to my bed
But I get again loose and it makes me feel right
It confuses me
Like an Astral Travel
Out Of Body Experience
But then I run back home
Because I don't want to die a sleepy death
Give it to me
I've got nothing to lose
I said give it to me
I've got nothing to lose
I can't ignore the pressure
I can't ignore the pain
I can't ignore the reasons
I look for my escape
Give it to me
I've got nothing to lose
I said give it to me
I've got nothing to lose
Then I close my eyes and
I begin to move